Reality is a . . .
2006-05-17, 9:58 a.m.
Day 633 Reality is a Harsh Mistress
Muchas gracias to Alison for slapping me up and making me realize I need to get a little head work done on me too. Nothing major, just some tweaks. Coping mechanisms too. Those would be nice.
I know of an Al-Anon group that meets Thursdays @ 5pm at a church about 6 miles from where I work. Not the most convenient place to get to, but the time is really good. I plan on going again next week. This week I need to go help haul son #1 home from school.
My employer also offers counseling services for these types of situations. I hate calling places like that from here in Dilbertville, there are so many accidental eaves droppers. I do have two Dr. appointments of my own this afternoon, so I took the afternoon off. I can use that private time to call and discuss appointment options with them.
The other thing Iíd like to try and accomplish this week is to meet up with Serena. Inquiring minds want to know Ė just what is this whirling dervish like in real life?? I for one, am really curious. Besides, sheís met my son, and they both lived to tell the tale. Now we HAVE to meet. Serena Ė Iíll email ya Ė we can see if our schedules match up. I ought to be able to squeeze a little ifín I need to.
Another horrible, lousy, cardio work out this morning. Think the old legs are still hurting from the 5K over the weekend. Laying off leg presses for a bit, to see if that helps them out. Poor things just arenít used to all that activity.
The malaise is even crossing over into resistance training. Been really struggling to complete 3 sets at weights that hadnít given me that much trouble before. Probably a combination of stress, poor sleep and the lingering effects of last weeks all nighter & the 5K. Iíll be doing no formal workout Friday, just moving stuff. Maybe that bit of a break will help. Also havenít had a proper aerobics class in nearly 2 weeks. I miss the change of pace those classes offer. Ought to make that part of my own recovery Ė making sure I get to those classes. Besides, I kinda miss the interactions with the different people too. Hell Ė theyíre sober. Nice change.
The one encouraging thing to come out of all this is that there have been no urges to break down and light up a butt. Iím hoping going to the gym and getting in really good, sweaty workouts has replaced the desire for nicotine. Seems to have worked so far Ė and itís cheaper too. 21 month anniversary of being smoke free is coming up this Monday. Think Iíll celebrate with a nice long work out.
I gotta go pretend to be productive and stop obsessing about things I canít control. Now.
Weight start: 206.5 on 1/1/06 (265.0 on 1/15/05)
Current weight 193.00 on 5/14/06
Target: 180 by 7/1/06 (Start of swim suit season??)
Next ďofficialĒ weigh in: 5/20/06
The Keep on Truckin goal: (idea stolen shamelessly from Marnís Big Adventure)
Miles at speed 5/17/06: 375.32
Miles with cooldown: 412.98
Target for 2006: 1000 miles
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